i fall in love with you everytime.. -Tamia.
WOWZERRS!*
i'm actually back! jhasmyncamille part two!
i've had some time to recover over certain situations & i've learned alot!
now it's time to share. i think i'm ready to share! LOL.
welp, let's start off with myself.
uhh, i'm no longer heart broken! lol, i've finally gotten over some situations. Malkum being one of them. JB being another. I'm in school & it's going okay.. it's school. :) lol. i've realized who my bestfriends are. I'm getting stronger everyday, still eating. LOL. i'm looking for an apartment so i can move out with my bestie KWilson. <3>
Well you're probably wondering how i'm carryin shit wit malk & jb aye?
lol, well. who gives a fuck. lol sike.
JB - i don't talk to him, at all. it's so rare.. i can't even remember the last time i did. & it's no beef. we just.. don't talk. & i'm finally okay with that. i finally realize that people are just gonna go for theirs. & that's whassup i suppose.
Malkum -well, there's alot to say about him. well remember how i was all like i loved him & i really enjoy spending time with him, lol. well how abouttt it was a year we were talking in August & he has a girlfriend!!!! LOL crazy right? Yeahh, i knoww. SMH. But i mean, hey if that's how he wants to do things, then that's fine. at first i was SOOOOOOO UPSET. i mean, like my self esteem hit rock bottom, my heart... wow. i can't even explain how i was feeling. However, after crying and being depressed for weeks, i realized i couldn't continue MY life like this.. i had to use damage control. clearly he doesn't give a fuck about me. so i let shit go.
i'm happy :) like okay, i was honestly in love with him. but you gotta realize you can't just keep giving your all & not get anything. so i decided to change my motto from "it ain trickin if you got it." they lyin. i say "it ain trickin if you got him" HE WON'T MINE! LMAO. so, yeah. i mean i'ma just hold back. that's all.
and i'm happy with that decision. :) i realized today i don't wanna have anything too much to do with either one of these guys.. not for a while anyways.
but while i was going thru my hard times there was this one guy who helped me alot! his name is Linwood! :) even though he won't let me be his bestfriend, i'm still gonna make him let me be one day. lol.
Linwood listened to everything and any little thing i ever had to say! & if it wasn't for him some nights, i probably would of went off somewhere else in life.. off the deep end. so thanks Linwood. :) you're the best too.
but i have class in the morning, i'm thinking today was thursday lol. but it's only monday. so tomorrow i got a 930 & its 1230 right now. i'm going to call it a night. you should too. :)
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